It started around 15, my father was dying of cancer and I was going into high school that fall. He died one day, and everything changed. I drank a bunch the day of his wake and tried to have sex in my basement with Maria.
I got drunk and angry. I tried to roll a car over and got caught. I put my fist through a plate glass window and really cut my hand up badly and had to have a hospital stay. I broke my fingers with a baseball bat knocking mailboxes off their hinges. Numerous physical fights with my mom. I passed out in some strange slovenly mans house and he had my mom come pick me up. I broke my neck in boarding school at a keg party. I severed an artery in my finger at college trying to ring a fire alarm. I ended up in jail because Sam and I were in a middle school using the bathroom and he was steeling change. I got kicked out of school because of bad grades. I stole electronics in a drunken stupor and nearly got caught. I attempted suicked in Vermont and went away to rehab. I went to cooking school and nearly got thrown out and was sent to AA from destroying a vending machine.I moved to SF and ruined a relationship do to drinking and move do Denver over night with some gay guys that turned out to be a fucked up move. I ended up in a shitty basement apartment drunk all the time. I left and moved to NYC and got fired from my job for being hung over. I went to my first detox for cock and booze. I got hooked on heroine. years of in and out of AA in NYC and the Hamptons. Got fired form a job in hamptons for drinking I ruined more relationships. I went to rehab. I went to another rehab. I moved to Florida and found some cock on the beach. I moved to mass with my GF. followed her to chapel hill. after rehab. I got drunk and rob some stores. relapsed in AA. Went to NYC to live with my brother and screwed things up royally and went to detox, was almost homeless, moved ot New Port and went to Rehab in Mass. Went to Rehab in Conn. Got charged with Heroine possession in Conn. Got charged with forging a script in New Port. Moved ot NYC, Stayed sober for 3.5 years. God drunk in LA and ended up getting hooked on Heroine again. Rehab for 3 months. Relapsed again in Hamptons out in Okland. I came back and relapsed and went to High watch for 30 days. I drank again and got sober for 5 years. I relapsed and got a DUI, and nearly another one a few months later. I moved out of my house. I got caught with Heroine and was in jail for a few days and then ended up gatting off, but getting fired because of it. I got sober again. and then relapsed again and nearly died of an OD and got robbed. I went to detox, a year later the same thing. and moved to an oxford house. Nearly lost my job, crashed my car on the way to cleveland nearly got a DUI. got out of it. broke my ribs and got a black eye.and all this and then shared a needle with a friend that we found in a hotel room that may have given me HIV or Hep C or both . that is yet to be determined. I spent countless amounts of money or drinking and drugs. and hotels and women instead of my family. I have tried to kill myself a few times over this deep depression. Now I am facing jail over my 2nd DUI in VA in five years and a felony hit and run and like I said, possible huge health issues. I will pray to God once more and put my nose to the stone and see if I can not get it this time. One day at a time. Please Help me.
I got drunk and angry. I tried to roll a car over and got caught. I put my fist through a plate glass window and really cut my hand up badly and had to have a hospital stay. I broke my fingers with a baseball bat knocking mailboxes off their hinges. Numerous physical fights with my mom. I passed out in some strange slovenly mans house and he had my mom come pick me up. I broke my neck in boarding school at a keg party. I severed an artery in my finger at college trying to ring a fire alarm. I ended up in jail because Sam and I were in a middle school using the bathroom and he was steeling change. I got kicked out of school because of bad grades. I stole electronics in a drunken stupor and nearly got caught. I attempted suicked in Vermont and went away to rehab. I went to cooking school and nearly got thrown out and was sent to AA from destroying a vending machine.I moved to SF and ruined a relationship do to drinking and move do Denver over night with some gay guys that turned out to be a fucked up move. I ended up in a shitty basement apartment drunk all the time. I left and moved to NYC and got fired from my job for being hung over. I went to my first detox for cock and booze. I got hooked on heroine. years of in and out of AA in NYC and the Hamptons. Got fired form a job in hamptons for drinking I ruined more relationships. I went to rehab. I went to another rehab. I moved to Florida and found some cock on the beach. I moved to mass with my GF. followed her to chapel hill. after rehab. I got drunk and rob some stores. relapsed in AA. Went to NYC to live with my brother and screwed things up royally and went to detox, was almost homeless, moved ot New Port and went to Rehab in Mass. Went to Rehab in Conn. Got charged with Heroine possession in Conn. Got charged with forging a script in New Port. Moved ot NYC, Stayed sober for 3.5 years. God drunk in LA and ended up getting hooked on Heroine again. Rehab for 3 months. Relapsed again in Hamptons out in Okland. I came back and relapsed and went to High watch for 30 days. I drank again and got sober for 5 years. I relapsed and got a DUI, and nearly another one a few months later. I moved out of my house. I got caught with Heroine and was in jail for a few days and then ended up gatting off, but getting fired because of it. I got sober again. and then relapsed again and nearly died of an OD and got robbed. I went to detox, a year later the same thing. and moved to an oxford house. Nearly lost my job, crashed my car on the way to cleveland nearly got a DUI. got out of it. broke my ribs and got a black eye.and all this and then shared a needle with a friend that we found in a hotel room that may have given me HIV or Hep C or both . that is yet to be determined. I spent countless amounts of money or drinking and drugs. and hotels and women instead of my family. I have tried to kill myself a few times over this deep depression. Now I am facing jail over my 2nd DUI in VA in five years and a felony hit and run and like I said, possible huge health issues. I will pray to God once more and put my nose to the stone and see if I can not get it this time. One day at a time. Please Help me.
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