I met my buddies downtown and we decided we would hang out near the package store, the name used for a place to buy booze, and see if would could get someone to buy some shit for us. My friends, friends older brother came by and we talked him into buying us some booze, blackberry brandy and some beers and cheap wine.
The feeling I got after downing the stuff was just amazing, in that cold New England fall I felt warm, and happy and without fear. I felt a sens of power I had never felt before and an understanding that everything was "okay' in my life.
So many illusions in life that masquerade as the truth and the truth was that at that point it was a never ending cascade of failings, from father to son and mother to child on how to live life correctly and fully without fear and a way to impart tools on how to live correctly. It's really no ones fault really as we all do what we know and the best we can do at that time. I;m not even going to go into my parenting, except to say, like many, they probably never should have had kids or married, but, then you would not have me to entertain you?
I got drunk and was unable to make the dance, laying by a grave spinning. One of the boy knocked over a tomb stone, on purpose I suspect and that made it into the paper as an unsolved mystery of vandalized property and desecration.
So, the long journey and love affair had begun.....
The feeling I got after downing the stuff was just amazing, in that cold New England fall I felt warm, and happy and without fear. I felt a sens of power I had never felt before and an understanding that everything was "okay' in my life.
So many illusions in life that masquerade as the truth and the truth was that at that point it was a never ending cascade of failings, from father to son and mother to child on how to live life correctly and fully without fear and a way to impart tools on how to live correctly. It's really no ones fault really as we all do what we know and the best we can do at that time. I;m not even going to go into my parenting, except to say, like many, they probably never should have had kids or married, but, then you would not have me to entertain you?
I got drunk and was unable to make the dance, laying by a grave spinning. One of the boy knocked over a tomb stone, on purpose I suspect and that made it into the paper as an unsolved mystery of vandalized property and desecration.
So, the long journey and love affair had begun.....
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